Snow Flower and The Secret Fan

This is my second time reading Lisa See's work, Snow Flower and The Secret Fan.

Her works totally blew away with her mesmerizing words and flawless way of story telling. I accidently stumbled upon my first book from her work, Peony in Love when I was rummaging through a bookstore trying to find a great book to read and I never regret of buying the book. I always love Asian Literature because it's something I can relate too and being half Chinese also drives me to read her book.

Being illiterate in Chinese customs and such, reading Peony in Love at first troubled me because I thought it's another book about women-heartbroken-died - a very typical kind of storyline. But going along with the story I was wrong and I enjoyed reading it very much. It's a nice story. I like it when women were potrayed as strong,intelligent yet still a woman not a she-man. 

So, I bought another book also by the same author titled, Snow Flower and The Secret Fan. This time I couldn't really fathom what was the book was all about. What is it about the reversal of fortune is all about. Reading it reminds me of my relationship with a once a close friend of mine. 

I'm a loyal person (I think most of us are loyal too). I thought what we had was a really beautiful friendship which I hope it to lasts forever. It's true that a relationship will go haywire when there's a third person exists whether the person exists intentionally or not plus with a set of secrets untold and a pack of lies. A perfect recipe for a complete annihilation of a relationship. 

I guess there's no need to dwell on the past. I also have no intention to pick up the pieces of the lost friendship. It may sound childish but I am not as noble as Lily as she redeem herself by taking care of Snow Flowers children after she had died and live a long life of regret. But what happened between me and her is a very different story. Nothing like Lily and Snow Flower. Therefore, I let it go just like I let go of everything else that I could not grasp. I did not want to be a part of anything that would link me to her. I wish her well, I forgive everything she had done to me and really would like her to just stop harassing me and let me live my life because whatever that comes from her was just a lie. An absolute lie.

Match make

Dad had just came back from Ireland earlier this week. He went there to see his son and his wife whom had just gave birth to a baby boy last month and also to spend the whole month of Ramadan there. When he came back to Malaysia with a whole lot of mission in his hands for my brother and I.

First, he rang up Mom early in the morning to tell her that he had potential husband-to-be for me. I feel like laughing out loud. This is not the first time Dad had tried to match make me. He told Mum that it is his responsibility to find a match for me since I'm still single and no news of me going out dating.

I still remember his first attempt to match make me with one of his acquaintance's son (whatever it is). He told Mom that the boy is from his kampung and he knew the boy's family very well. The boy's father is a Penghulu/chief of the village there and definitely the family background is guaranteed 100% a good family. So, Dad gave him my phone number and Mum made me saved his phone number in my phone book. I guess Dad told him to contact me whatsoever which he didn't. When Dad reached Malaysia last Monday he contacted the boy and guess what? A women answered his phone and told Dad that he's already engaged! Dad was dumbstruck but being a persuasive, persevere person himself, this is just a minor setback in his journey to find a match for his daughter.

I feel sorry for Dad and Mum too. They try so hard to make sure that I won't choose the wrong person as my husband. To tell the truth I did not know what the future would be like for me. Maybe I would end up like Mum married to a scumbag (my real dad) and suffer for the rest of my life. I don't know. It is because I've yet to find out what kind person I would like to spend my life with (definitely not my real dad kind of quality). But one thing's for sure future is bright for my brother because he had a 'friend' (I purposedly did not want to know of their relationship status...ewww) and I'm very happy for him.

As long as those people whom I care very are happy enjoying their lives, I am at ease. For now, all I could do is just enjoy my life and hopefully no more questions about boyfriends and nonsense stuff at this moment.

P/S: Congrats to my friend, Fikri whom had just married and another friend, Yati who's going to get engage next month. Hopefully it will last for ever and God bless.